Will Is Not Enough Anymore

If I only had some courage a bit of strength I’d get over this all. I would forget the bitter taste. I would leave it all behind; leave this sad world for awhile. I can not promise I would smile, but it sure would be sweet. I’d be sorry for that left behind for who I hurt. I would be sorry that I was not more kind. I’d miss all the good times for sure , I would even miss the bad , but at least those around me be forced to look upon these pitiful eyes, no more would the night wind be all that’s left to carry my lonesome cries. I would still be alone this is true but my pain would at least be my own, I’d no longer feel the need to share with an

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This FaceIt pains me to see my own face, the one I once knew gone without a trace, vanished into thin air. Well for the pain I caused it must be only fair. If I could take it all back, I still would not. There is only one thing I wish I could change and I know the exact spot. The self I knew befor was able to love you well, but the day this one took over I guess I could not. So, no! Change it all, I will not say I would, but to find out how I lost myself, oh how I wish I could. I would go back to the day you saw a change in me. I could be wrong, but I don't think I would ask for it when all I wanted in life was for us to just be. And I kno This Face
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Inner Diatribe ExposedSometimes, it seems as if I can not control the shit that spills forth from my poison lips. I guess it's not for me to wonder though, seeing-as-how I was not even in control when my demons took over. It's not even really a surprise now, to see I still have no control. My life as always is ruled by the choices I have made and the choices I have been and will be forced to make everyday. I can not really be "unhappy" though about being so very unhappy, I mean, I must deserve this pain, I must owe something terrible to someone or something. If not then vengeance will one fine day be mine, but alas, it is a very bleak existence waiting Inner Diatribe Exposed
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Will Is Not Enough AnymoreIf I only had some courage a bit of strength I’d get over this all. I would forget the bitter taste. I would leave it all behind; leave this sad world for awhile. I can not promise I would smile, but it sure would be sweet. I’d be sorry for that left behind for who I hurt. I would be sorry that I was not more kind. I’d miss all the good times for sure , I would even miss the bad , but at least those around me be forced to look upon these pitiful eyes, no more would the night wind be all that’s left to carry my lonesome cries. I would still be alone this is true but my pain would at least be my own, I’d no longer feel the need to share with an Will Is Not Enough Anymore
by ~lostinamemorie

PrayerGod help! What have I done? What will I do? Take back the past, I have no power, it’s all on you. I ask can you remember seeing me smile, do you miss it much? Well I can and I do, how did I lose touch? Who can I blame? I would take it if I knew I was more than I am. I would gladly pay the price, God if only you would tell me what for! I miss her yes, but I miss myself and you much more! I cry, I hurt, I… God I just don’t know what else to do! One answer, one thought, just one more ounce of strength please! Everything in life the entire good all it is brings me to my knees. How can I say I’m sorry, how can I fix what is lost? Take anything, sa Prayer
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Changing Times and Saving Face

Tue Jul 11, 2006, 7:00 PM

Being lost is becoming more and more a part of my life now days. How does one go from being so self-assured to so far gone in such a short time, and how do you fix what you've broken assunder.

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~melissah Dec 5, 2007, 8:19:06 AM

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